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quick update on my life since i won't be blogging much anymore. at&t finally cut off our internet and cable, so i'm internet-less, unless i'm at school, back in rancho, or at the coffee shop. anyway.

there is this man here that keeps trying to make extremely awkward eye contact with me. i fantasized about him... poked his eyes out with my straw and shoved that stupid book he's reading up his pee hole. true story.

#1: halloween was a bust. i ended up getting off way later than expected, was too drunk to drive anywhere, so i just had wes pick me up and take me home. didn't really remember what happened after that.

#2: the cute security guard at work finally gave me some sort of sign that he knows i exist. i've had this fatty crush on him since he started working there, but he never paid any attention to me and my drooling stares at him. haa. halloween night he worked the front with me, told me he's been trying to work up the balls to come talk to me for awhile now, and we texted all throughout our shift. it's weird because the further along we got into the night, the less interested i became in him. and it sucks how you try and get along with your life, and everyone BUT one gives you attention, and that's the one you want. can't say i didn't try. haa. i just think it's really stupid of me how i try to hold onto something for as long as i can, even if i know the let down will be that much harder in the end. but, "i should be used to it by now" so i don't let it get to me as bad as it did before. whatev, onto more important things..

#3: school. my dad thinks i should transfer to san jose state and just do it the long way. it's tempting, but i feel like i won't get anything down out there. i would have to live with my dad again, but at least i'll be closer to my family and what not. i denno, i'll have to re-evaluate my options. living with my dad will be a nightmare.

#4: and speaking of my dad, i finally showed him my lipring. he wasn't as mad as i thought he was gonna be. he actually likes it. he just told me he's scared i'm gonna get a tattoo, and if i do, he's gonna disown me. or so he says. we all know he doesn't have the balls to do that. =p soooo tattoo session soon. i know, i'm horrible.

november will be better,
cam