ZOLOFT?

i hate being in this state of.. i dno, depression? i already figured out what i'm going to do, and i'm determined to make it happen.. but just the thought of throwing away a year and a half + $32,000 just gives me knots in my stomache. i mean, hey if i can find a good merchandising job with it, high five to me. but it still won't make up for the actual loss of the whole situation. i know people make mistakes, but this was a really BIG one. a big and expensive one i might add.

i got A's on all my finals, and ended my winter term just a little under a 4.0 gpa. and i couldn't be any sadder.

i just need to accept what's happened and move on.. =(

on a brighter note..
this saturday is alvin's b-day. adrianisms, vernon, chrisb, maybe christine, and their whole crew are coming up to sac for the weekend. i couldn't get the next day off to spend hungover sunday with them, but that's okay. some last minute cash before i leave for san jose wouldn't hurt.

anyway, i was supposed to be at work 12 minutes ago. splendid.