IT'S 4:59AM.

and i'm still laying here in the same spot that i've been for over an hour. i have to pee, but the room is way to dark to even successfully maneuver myself over there. i feel a poke on my back, which is the unraveling lace of my aged bra that i refuse to get rid of. it's my favorite. it still holds my goods up. why should i throw it away? so i won't. anyway, it's officially 2009. damn. i remember back in the day when me and my cousins would play those stupid games like "house" and "work", and i'd refer to the far future of flying cars and time travel in the year 2015. if you think about it, it's not even that far away. scurry. i also remember how there was this thing about y2k, and how the world supposedly was supposed to be coming to an end when 2000 hit. i was 10 when we celebrated the year 2000. and i remember being scared as shit when that ball hit :01 seconds. i remember not saying a word when everyone was celebrating. i was expecting a huge explosion, waves, tornados, thunder, rain.. shit, anything. i even wrote down on a paper how i would've lived my life if i did get to live longer. i wish i kept that. i threw it away once i got home from that new years party. i felt really stupid.

i don't even know why i'm talking about this right now.
all i really wanted to get at is that.. i started 2009 off right. the past few weeks have been crazy, but i feel like i needed that so i can stay on track not only this year.. but the years to come.

okay i really have to pee now. i hope everyone had a wonderful and safe new year!
goodnight. actually, goodmorning. :)